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“Maybe Try Some Cursing”

A Short Story by: Steven Lewis

From a low mouse like perspective looking up at an open door, the scene begins with an enraged young woman entering the office. Only seeing the bottom of her black and white pleated skirt, heavily torn fishnet stockings and her loved but well-traveled faded black boots. The secretary frantically tries to stop her. “Miss! You can’t go in there!” But she ignores the baseless warnings and enters the office with authority though battered and bruised. Behind the colossal and commanding desk there is a predominant male figure which we can only hear and not see, welcoming her into his pristine and nearly blinding bright office. “Oh, Stephanie! It’s always a delight to see you. Why back so soon?” That’s when she begins her anger-filled rant with “You Motherfucker!” Listing countless unnecessary hardships and senseless acts of violence that she has endured, from childhood to her tragic shortened adult life. About halfway into her 6-minute tongue lashing, she says “Oh yeah, let’s not forget about being born in the wrong body of an oppressed minority in a racist and transphobic country. You’re so fucking funny!” As she continues venting at the top of her lungs, crying uncontrollably all the while. “You watched me— you watched us get the shit beaten out of us, constantly bullied, endlessly raped and molested, stripping us of any dignity, and YOU call it a test?!” The figure of importance behind the desk tells her all her needs were met and how there were hundreds of millions of people who wished they had a life that was so well taken care of. She quickly interrupts, “You arrogant prick! You don’t get it! You need to go back down there again and see what it’s like now!” He proudly says slowly, “You do — know who you’re talking to?” Sarcastically she replies, “I know full well who you are! With your numerous misguided cults and so-called devoted followers”. “Hey, let’s not be rude,” he replies defensively. She continues her tear-filled and rage filled outburst. Pacing back and forth with her bruised hands tightening into fist, only seeing her as she passes by the opening of the door. She then goes on to explain how she is sick of his lack of attention to “all the problems down there” pointing to a brightly lit blue object on his desk just out of view. She angrily states, “You don’t fucking give a shit! Not even a little.”  She then pauses expecting him to answer. He calmly responds, “You know the rules. I can’t get involved.” She fiercely shouts, “Can’t get involved?” Pointing her finger at him, “This whole thing is YOUR perverted idea! You made the rules, then made a world that was designed to break them. You have the nerve to call it free will. It’s fucking entrapment!” Then continues with, “All the senseless wars, the preventable hunger, generational poverty, let’s not forget about the open racism, the demeaning layers of misogyny along with the hatred of anything different! And you can’t get involved? We thought You cared.” “I do” he quickly answers. Screaming at him, “You’re a fucking liar!” Trying to get control of the situation and shifting his seat forward, he tries offers her a better life than before. Cutting him off again, “You made me endure the absolute worst parts of humanity, and you dare ask if I want to “Try it again?” Like it’s some type of fucking cosmic carnival ride I can just hop back on and pretend it won’t break me again. No fucking way! I’m not going to play your stupid game anymore!” With both of her bloody hands, she clears everything off his neatly organized desk. As the contents of his desk hits the floor, a softball-sized glowing sphere falls off his desk and starts to roll out of his office. From the corner of her tear-filled eyes, she notices it rolling away, she briskly walks over and picks it up. He nervously says, “Be very careful with that. It is one of a kind and unbelievably fragile.” She responds, “Fuck You and Your pale blue dot!” With all her anger, rage, and frustration, she throws it at him. But being physically drained from screaming, crying along with having poor aim, it completely misses him. It crashes through the window behind him. She then turns away, grabs the door handle, slamming it behind her so hard that it breaks the stain glass window in the door. The colorful broken glass sparkles in the light as it falls and hits the floor. One of the larger pieces comes into view and you can see a name that was painted on the window. In a metallic gold papyrus font read, “God”.

Thanks for stopping by,

Steven

“It’s Not About the Gear… Until It Is”

Canon or Nikon? DSLR or mirrorless? Full frame or cropped sensor? Prime or Zoom? New or used? How about if you are trying to capture a full-frame, tack-sharp photo of the Moon with your cellphone camera? Or walking around a major city doing street photography with a 600mm prime! How much and when does “Gear” really matter? Along with are you using your gear within its limits? I know having the latest and greatest gear does very, very little when it comes to taking better photos. Then there’s the aspect of using one’s gear the wrong way.  I can think of only two scenarios in which gear matters. The first is when one has substandard or inadequate gear that inhibits their ability to capture an image that they envision. And the other is there is something about your gear that you dislike so much, it discourages you from using it.

Gear doesn’t matter but the wrong gear does because it hampers your abilities. It would be like having Max Verstappen or Lewis Hamilton drive a Tesla Model S Plaid at the Grand Prix of Monaco. Yeah, it’s a fast car but it is not the proper car for a Formula One race. And the same goes for you and your photography. Having the wrong or inadequate equipment can be very detrimental to your growth as a photographer. If as a photographer who has an understanding of not only exposure and light but a working knowledge of the elements of the arts, and if you are using gear that is preventing you from reaching your creative potential then it is bad for you and your ability to create images. It could be gear that doesn’t allow you to change lenses, or manipulate various settings, or you do have enough focal length.

Back in 2004, I was shooting aviation events with my Digital Rebel. And was using a function that still is necessary for aviation photography today (if you’re a Canon shooter) is AI Servo. This auto-focus mode is for tracking fast-moving subjects. When you half depress the shutter button, with your AF point on a moving subject, the camera will continue to keep the subject in focus. The only downside is that on the Digital Rebel, you could only access AI Servos in Sport mode which prevents you from selecting your aperture and shutter speed as well as locking the ISO at 400. Back then 400 was super noisy due to the tiny 6.3-megapixel sensor. But it wasn’t an issue when I was shooting jets because the camera maintained a fast enough shutter speed to capture them. But my love was for WWII warbirds, which requires control of the shutter to prevent freezing the props and get what is known as prop blur. Because of this lack of control, which was hindering my ability to photograph what I love, I chose to upgrade to the Canon 20D which allowed me to select AI Servos in any mode without locking the ISO.

Gear that you’re so dissatisfied with it, that you no longer want to use it matters as well. It should be noted that a lack of understanding of how to use your gear properly and misusing it does not count here. It would be similar to a painter who dislikes a certain brand of paint or a sketch artist who doesn’t like a type of marker or pencil. When it comes to your gear, it could be a lens that just doesn’t perform well, a tripod that can’t support your setup or you just hate the way your camera body feels in your hands. As a photographer, your tools are your gear. And being hampered by one’s tools can destroy one’s confidence along with enthusiasm to continue to capture images. There has to be a good level of comfort along with enjoyment with your gear that keeps you excited about photography.

Years ago, I purchased both the Canon 100-400mm zoom (the push-pull mark 1) and the 400mm F/5.6 prime. Both were L series lenses that “promise of professional quality in image reproduction performance, operability and reliability.” I intended to use the prime as my main lens and the versatility of the zoom as my secondary. But the images from the 100-400 were constantly soft. And when the images were in focus, the clarity was nowhere near the 400mm prime which was always tack sharp. I used it at multiple airshows but was never able to get results that I was happy with. Because of its soft focusing and how inconsistent it was, I didn’t want to shoot with it. I was so disappointed with the fact that it was supposed to be of professional performance. In the end, I lost all enthusiasm for that lens, and I eventually sold it.

The art form of photography is not about the gear but rather the images that we create and share. The camera, lenses, light meters, and tripods… are all just tools that allow you to capture photos. And about 98% of the time, it doesn’t matter. I’m willing to bet that a large portion of your audience doesn’t care about what gear you use. But if your gear is harming your growth, by either obstructing your development and abilities or is causing you to lose enthusiasm and confidence in your ability to create images, that’s when gear matters.

How do you feel about gear? Leave your thoughts in the comments section below.

Thanks for stopping by,

Steven

Gear Used:

iPhone 6

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“Navigating 2024: Personal Growth and Bucket List Adventures”

Since I’ve given up on New Years Resolutions years ago, I’ve found setting some personal goals for myself to be not only satisfying but fulfilling. They are, for me, far more meaningful and manageable to accomplish. I can add to them and edit them to suit my situation. As well as outright delete them. Some are completable, some are reminders, and some are something for me to continually work towards.

What did I learn in 2024?

Life has a way of teaching us lessons through both hardship and growth. I’ve come to realize that there are some mean spirited and fucked up people out there —individuals who, without hesitation, bully and cause harm to others, whether through reckless actions like causing a car accidents or through deliberate cruelty. And because of my experiences with these individuals, it has taught me the value of distancing myself from those who don’t give a shit about their actions. 2024 has also shown me the importance of friendship and the memories we create together, grounding myself in the relationships that truly matter. Along with time, my most precious and non-renewable resource has taken on new meaning as I try to spend it wisely—at work, at home, and in play—choosing carefully who and what deserves my attention. And finally, I’ve come to embrace the value of exploring the quirks of my own mind, even though it doesn’t seem to function “properly.” I’ve come to accept it with a sense of humor and a willingness to grow, knowing that understanding myself is an ongoing journey worth taking.

Where did I go and see in 2024?

This was a bucket list year which included a bunch of firsts for me. Beginning with a mini road trip with my best friends down to Toledo, Ohio to see our first Total Solar Eclipse. It was stellar. (Pun intended 🙂) Our next group outing was celebrating Star Wars Day (May the Fourth) in downtown Detroit.

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Then in July, I began my epic England aviation vacation. My first time “Crossing the Pond”, driving in England along with my first air-to-air photo flight. I struggle with describing how fucking exhilarating it was to photograph World War Two fighters over the iconic English countryside from the back of the famous pink Skyvan. While racking up 1400 miles on a rental car, I had to go and see the infamous White Cliffs of Dover along with one of my favorite all-time aircraft, TSR.2. She is such an amazing larger than life aircraft. And yes, I had to do some plane spotting at London-Heathrow while I was in England. Then I heard London calling, so I answered with another day trip via the train, which I found pleasing to ride. Seeing such iconic and historical landmarks felt like a dream.

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And since I fell in love with helicopter flights, you know I had to book a flight over London. And as long as I have been attending and photographing airshows, the Royal International Air Tattoo (RIAT) has always been on my radar. And after 5 days of RIAT, I can say it is a far superior experience to Oshkosh AirVenture. A week after I got back from my England trip and with jet lag in full force, my sister along with my best friend and I headed to Las Vegas for some serious nerding out at the Star Trek convention. The best was saved for last. Two of my best friends got married, my other bestie officiated, and I was the “Best Man” (another first for me). From the rehearsal to the ceremony all the way through to the reception, we had an absolute blast.

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What did I Lose in 2024?

My good friend, Shawn Yost. Tragically, cancer relentlessly took him from us. My wonderful friendship with him started back in 2004 at the Grosse Ile Airshow. I had arrived early and scoped out a spot on the taxiway to shoot from. Shawn walks up and sets down his chair a couple of feet away from me. Opens up his camera bag and I noticed he pulled out the same camera body that I had, the Canon Digital Rebel. And that started our friendship with our shared love of aviation and photography that lasted for 2 decades. Over the years, we traveled coast to coast, shooting tens of thousands of photos, and creating countless hilarious and meaningful memories. We had so much fun together.

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As time passed, we had different paths in life, and our lives slowly separated further and further apart. I was in England when I got the news of his illness. It was two weeks later that I spoke to him, and the first thing he said to me was that it didn’t matter what happened to our relationship, life happens. But now we are starting over. And our conversation picked up right where we left off. We talked about shows and events we attended, shared photos back and forth, just like old times. Sadly, 35 days later, he passed. If I’ve learned anything from this, it is that Life is short. Use your time doing what you love with the people you love being around. Someone once asked me, “What are the images that you shot that makes you smile?” Not your best or favorite. Mine are of Shawn and my fellow aviation photographers goofing around at airshows over the years. I miss you, my friend.

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What did I Gain in 2024?

I’ve had better mental health in the past 6 months than I ever had in the past 40 years. Why now and what caused this huge positive shift? Well, for years now I’ve been putting a lot of effort and dedication into bettering my mental health. And I can say with confidence that looking back at my life, I’ve had poor mental health for years and didn’t know what to do about it. To a point of just accepting and struggling with it. I journaled for years, and it helped temporarily and had no lasting impact. Then I started listening to self care podcasts and philosophy audiobooks, applying what I learned to my life. Some of it suck like glue and some just wasn’t right for me. But as I slowly got to know myself and my triggers, my outlook on life changed as well as having fewer and fewer days of having a noisy and chaotic mind. Then with the death of Shawn, it dramatically altered my perspective. I started to see who and what is profoundly important to me and on the flip side, who and what does not. Also expelling myself from the super massive black hole of death scrolling through social media and the News has been so liberating. It’s a gravity well of anxiety and fear that is relentlessly damaging and tremendously toxic to my peace of mind. This ongoing spiritual journey has helped me discover and realize a meaningful purpose in life.

How I met Cielo

Early this year, I got into a car accident which was caused by another driver’s road rage. Fortunately, no one was hurt but my car of 10 years was damaged. It was repairable but I knew sooner versus later, things were going to start failing and I wasn’t going to start dumping money into her. So, this was my reasoning for getting a new car. From the start of this, didn’t know what kind of car I wanted, just features I knew I wanted. Turbocharged engine, all-wheel drive, heated steering wheel, Apple CarPlay along with the newer technology that my old car didn’t have. Did quite a bit of searching online and found a few possible candidates. While at the dealership looking at various Genesis G70 models, I spotted the Hyundai Santa Cruz, which checked all my boxes. And after a test drive, I told my sales representative that I wanted a blue one. The dealership didn’t have any in blue. But she would contact their other dealerships and if they had one, it could be transported here. The next day, she called and told me that she found one with the same trim level I wanted. A week later, I got my Cielo. Which is “Sky” in Spanish.

Looking back on 2024, it had its profound life lessons, bucket list adventures and strengthening meaningful friendships. From witnessing a solar eclipse and fulfilling lifelong aviation dreams to embracing better mental health, this year’s ups and down has been instrumental in changing the way I live my life. Finding a sense of purpose, cherishing my friendships, and continuing on with my life long spiritual journey are my most valuable takeaways from 2024. So, what’s in store for next year? You’ll just have to stick around and find out. 

Until next year,

Steven

Links to this Year’s Post

“Between Clouds and Legends: My Air-to-Air Journey Over the English

Countryside”

Spotting at LHR

“From the Thames to the Clouds: My Memorable London Adventures”

“Seeking Unique Shots on Arrival Day at the Royal International Air Tattoo

2024”

“The Royal International Air Tattoo: Redefining Awesome for Aviation

Photographers”

“Departure Day: Capturing the Magic of RIAT 2024”

“Finding Purpose: A Personal Journey Through Solitude, Creativity and Real

Friendship”

“The Art of Sharing: The Importance of Thoughtful Interactions”

“Capturing Hearts and Clicks: Growing Your Instagram to New Heights”

“A Photographer’s Holiday Tradition: Annual Photo Backup Routine”

Photographers young and old now is a great opportunity to backup your 2024 photos. Each year during the holiday season, I backup my all my photos from the past year. Saving them on three separate hard drives, ensuring my archive will remain safe and protected.

Hope you all have a safe and wonderful holiday season!